Don't sweat the small stuff

This entire week I have sat to write and found myself at a loss for words. Well, written words that is. I felt as if nothing happened and there was nothing to say. And even though that is furthest thing from the truth it made me realize I rarely notice the stuff that matters. Recently, I have gotten really good at sweating the small stuff. Really, really good at it. 

I'm not sure when or why it happened but it did. And it hit me hard the other day. I said something hurtful to Luis. Yes, I know its not the end of the world but it is still wrong. Even more so for the fact that I take words very seriously! I'm a communicator, words are the way I express myself and I take other peoples words to heart. Luis knows this; he has learned (and put to practice) to be careful not to speak hurtful words to me. And I always try to think before I speak. So although its not the end of the world I said something hurtful, it was way out of character and my words were hurtful.

Thats when it occurred to me; this change that had happened. What happened to the girl who would skip class just because the day was too beautiful to waste indoors! And if a professor asked why I had not attended I would, with confidence, tell them I would not remember their class, but I would remember lunch spent in the park with friends! What happen to the girl who would dance for no reason, talk to strangers about anything and laugh way too loud about absolutely nothing.

Is life so serious I can go a whole week without stopping to yah know, smell the roses?! Or my wonderful Christmas tree. Yes, there are things that have to get done. Laundry to do, groceries to buy, bills to pay and countless other "important" things. But life is not that serious and I need to stop pretending it is! 

So today I celebrated my successes one by one, literately...

1) I decorated our first Christmas Tree! Beautiful if I say so myself.

2) With much trial and error I have finally found success pumping milk. 

which is incredibly important because

3) I have found a sitter for Nico so I can return to work in January. Luckily, she's a great friend who will give him all the love and attention he deserves.

4) I finished my beautiful handmade Christmas cards. And mailed them, family photos included! 

5) Luis and I got time alone! Massages, an evening out and a great night!

6) I spent Friday night celebrating my best friends 21st birthday, sparkly of course!

7) My son and fiance' <3