I want to tell you that I loved you even before I knew you,
but I can't,
because I didn't.
You see, you were not supposed to be apart of my carefully crafted plans.
The ones where I could be free.
There was no story for you and me.
But god had other plans.
In that time, I was learning that god very often has other plans.
So I trusted.
I remember feeling like I wouldn't ever actually carry you home.
As if some magical thing would happen and you weren't really mine.
Like I might actually be able to be free.
But it didn't.
You very patiently came into this world.
Way too small, I swore you weren't ready.
But you were.
We struggled in the beginning, you and me.
You wouldn't eat, gain weight or be the right color.
I was tired.
I took care of you, I cared for you, but I don't know I loved you.
Not yet at least.
Every day, one by one, you made me fall more and more in love with you.
I could never love another like I love you.
You and me, we got healthy together. We got happy together.
Your laugh fills a room and your smile captures audiences.
You ask me if I'm okay when I sneeze and kiss my boo-boos.
You love your baby Char.
You are kind, compassionate, passionate, fierce, a voice, a fighter.
You and me, we're a lot alike.
Everyday I want to know you better, listen to you, see you.
I pray for you.
You heart.
Your eyes.
Your ears.
Your path.
Your purpose.
Your faith.
Your hope.
Your love.
For more of you and me.
I'm not sorry I didn't love you then,
because I know what not loving you is like,
and it makes me love you a hundred times more now.
You restored my hope, my faith, my peace, my purpose.
You are my light.
I couldn't have crafted a more perfect story.
I'll never stop loving you, as long as I live.
You could never change my love for you,
nothing you can ever do,
will make me stop loving you.
Thank you for the best 2 years of my life.
There's never going to be enough time for you and me.
Happy 2nd Birthday my perfect prince!
I love you!
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