We're young, wild and free ... alright, mostly just young! The two kids kind of tied down that wild and free part. So it's not unexpected that we are dumping our entire life
Luis and I fight a reasonable amount that two almost married people with kids should fight. But we don't bicker. You know that, everything you do annoys me and please go away quickly before I scream, bickering? That, we don't do that, never have! Well not until this last week! Pressure is on and we are feeling it big time! There is much to do and little time to do it.
Oh and we're supposed to be actively participating in our wedding planning. HA! Yeah, right!
Truth be told, I'm a free spirit, always have been and probably always will be. I'm going into this whole thing totally open to the possibility that it might not work out and that is a-oh-kay. Not because I want to dump a bunch of money down the drain, sell all my possessions and up-root my family for nothing! Simply, because I will have done it!
I will have seen an amazing opportunity to live in another world, learn a new culture and a language, study people and be shaped by the world in a whole new way ... and I will have done it! I will be able to look back and tell my children all the places they have been, the views they have see and who was on my back where! I will appreciate all the things "my world" has to offer and find out some ways of living I enjoy more. I will hear and see things that touch my soul; in sadness and joy. I will look back on it someday and feel life in me again.
And you see I can feel that way because luckily Luis is not so much that way! He's a man; basically,
man has bad day at work.
man comes home and makes everyone else have bad day.
end of story.
Clearly as opposed to women's day-
women has a bad dream about something totally unrealistic happening between her and her man.
women has horrible day at work.
cries 5 times in the bathroom.
sends 20 'you don't love me' text messages.
calls mans phone 14 times.
(many more overly dramatic thing happen)
story to be much continued every time man brings up women's bad dream.
Men bring work home and women bring home to work. A man's job is important to him, its his value, his worth. You see, it's not that Luis isn't excited for all those same adventures that I am. Of course he is. It's simply his underlying need to be sure he can support his family. That they will always be clothed, fed organic gluten free food, and kept safe (and never to forget about the gluten free food). He has never been one to worry but its a big step and a huge leap of faith. What if we fail. What is he fails. So many 'what if's'. Its challenging us, testing what we're made of, finding out if we can make it. And if we will, if we can press on, remember why we love each other...
The reward is sweet so very sweet.
I'm back writing, Keeping up to date with the steps leading up to the 'BIG move'. I'll keep you posted on all the crazy adventures we are having to get ready for our journey to paradise. I'm mostly looking forward to the breastfeeding, baby-wearing and back-packing. Ready or not .. Colombia or BUST!
oh man, and if you didn't get the news we are moving to Colombia in October.
David and I have learned through many life altering decisions that with determination and strength you can make it through anything and end up on top. While it may get really hard and seem nearly impossible if you keep pushing back you will get there. I am so excited for you and your family. So many good times and excellent adventures are ahead. I know you all will succeed. Just remember the big picture you are moving toward and everything else will settle along the way.
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